I been writing and rewriting this post but as the blog title states it's about my life in SL and this is a part of my life. So I ask that you read first before simply writing me off and labeling me as a 'Drama-Llama'
Friendships and Relationships are a bit of a tricky thing. Just because someone adds you to their list doesn't mean that they consider you a friend or are your friend, it simply means that they might see you around often enough that they feel they should add you. You can feel that they are a friend while in turn they don't think the same of you and when such happens it can hurt a lot.
I admit that I am an overly emotional person at times, I can wear my heart on my sleeve and care more about people than I mean too. Does this make me a horrible person; I personally don't think so, I think of it as a positive thing, I just try to see the good in everyone but perhaps I should become a bit more guarded and try not to care as much as I have in the past.
I know there are some people out there who have been told that they cause drama or that people feel drama comes from you. It can feel like a slap to the face for someone to hear that when they have simply just kept their SL as drama free as possible and try to be a friend. But lets face the facts, people do talk about one another, they judge you without even trying to get to know the real you. And that hurts, it really does, to be judged, to have assumptions made of you without another person coming to you and speaking with you first. I suppose what it all comes down to is knowing who is your friend and who is not, which is hard within a game where bonds can form quickly and you want to openly trust another person.
It's hard and it's a long road. I'm still learning and each and every single day. I am not perfect but I am simply myself, it's all that I can do, be myself and deal with what all may come my way.
I thank you if you have read this thing all the way to the end. It's just something that I felt I needed to write for myself.